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Ehhh This is a weird one but I need to get it out and motivate myself I guess...

So for a few years now I've been dealing with weight and eating habits. Last year was probably the year that I really started messing around on the edge of what was healthy and dangerous. I went from 160 to 130 within a year by becoming a vegitarian and I got addicted to weight loss. Ever since then, I've been really going to extremes with my eating. I've had three really bad segments of starvation and dieting but I'm going to start on my second.
My second starvation trip brought me from 125 to 115. I had to stop because others were getting suspicious and I was just plain weak. I had lasted over a month, almost 2, on about 500 calories a day + walking at least 2 miles a day. During my self recovery, I stayed around 115 for a while until I started eating junk food again and my weight went back up to 120. It took me about 3 months to gain the weight but when I did, I freaked out. Actually, it was only a couple weeks before homecoming I started to starve again. My weight gain and stress from losing my best friend did me in and I started eating less and counting calories and walking and weighing.
At first I just cut out all junk food and started eating healthy again. I went back down to 115 from just doing that but the high from weight loss was already back. Each day I would eat less and less and finally, I was down to 150 calories a day. and that was mostly from veggies.
I went down to my lowest weight, 96. at 5'5" my BMI was 16 where the border line from normal to underweight is 18.5. Long story short, I fainted.
I was in my bedroom on a friday night. for breakfast I had a 1/4 cup of cereal with no milk (25 calories) and for lunch, I decided to eat 5 baby carrots instead of my usual 10. (17.5 calories) I also jogged in place while I ate them. When I got home I walked/jogged 4 miles and I did 100 sit-ups. no supper. I decided while I was laying in bed that I didn't do enough to lose weight so I got up and started jogging in place. about 10 min into it, I started to get shaky and light headed so I laid on my floor and started doing crunches. I stood back up to jog more and I started to black out. I woke up at around 3am. My head was killing me and I guessed I hit it on my dresser. after that, I started to eat.
I've already gained back some of my weight and I knew that I was close to a relapse so this time, unlike last time, I am going to start working out. I want to try and look decent instead of just gaining the weight because I know I won't stick to weight gain. I started working out last week and I'm eating normal healthy foods again. I can already see a change and I think I'm okay with it. I can't see as many bones. I'm so scared that I won't stick with my workouts though. If I don't, I know I will relapse. I'm terrified... I can't tell anyone either. I've stopped weighing myself so i'm not sure how much I weigh right now but I know I've gained. I also don't count calories although I try to stick with low fat foods. I've also decided to become vegan. I'm happy now but I'm afraid it won't last. I read the journal I kept before I fainted and just reading what I was thinking scares me. I didn't know I was that bad off.

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Jaclynn (Bunny)
United States
about me: Drawing, Photography, Music, Writing, idiotic.....

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Current Residence: Louisiana!
Favourite genre of music: rock pop
Favourite style of art: old pictures
MP3 player of choice: i-pod
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Personal Quote: second chances never matter, people never change ~ paramore
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SouthernMan Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012
Happy Early Birthday, sweetie!! :glomp: :rose: :heart: Hope it's wonderful!!
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sanndy614 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
OMg how are u??????? its been sooo long!!!!!!!!!!!!
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You got a new doll?????!? >_< love your pics. keep it up
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sanndy614 Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: Is the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRIENDS: Never seen you cry
REAL FRIENDS: Cry with you

FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back
REAL FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours

FAKE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from
you

FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say 'I'M HOME!'

FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life

FAKE FRIENDS: Will talk bad to the person who talks bad about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock the person out that talked bad about you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would ignore this
REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to all their real friends and hope to
get it back!

If you were killed today, I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to come to
your funeral, because I'd be in jail for killing the person who did
it.


First, I wanted to let you know that I love you to death & think
you are amazing!

Second, if I don't get this back I understand...

I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to
14 people that you really care about, including the person that
sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back then you are
luved
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sanndy614 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Taggg Ur IT!!!!!!!! :iconsuperplz: ---->[link]
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You've been hugged! I love to HUG!!!!!!!! Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this...)

I sent an angel to watch over you last night, but it came back. I asked why: ... The angel said:"angels don't watch over angels!"
Twenty angels are IN your world. Ten of them are sleeping, nine are playing, One is reading this message. Send this to ten friends including me if I don't get it back then I guess I'm not one of them... as soon as you get five replies someone you love will quietly surprise you...
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You've been hugged! I love to HUG!!!!!!!! Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this...)

I sent an angel to watch over you last night, but it came back. I asked why: ... The angel said:"angels don't watch over angels!"
Twenty angels are IN your world. Ten of them are sleeping, nine are playing, One is reading this message. Send this to ten friends including me if I don't get it back then I guess I'm not one of them... as soon as you get five replies someone you love will quietly surprise you...
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sanndy614 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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AAAhhh!!! I missed your birthday!! :doh:

I hope it was super cool!
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